hello, just saw ur rship status on FB and boy I was surprised, haha, but in a good way.
I guessed you forgot about this blog?
Well, honestly I am really happy for you. =D I am glad that we talk together again, and that I dont have that sort of grudge I used to have against you, hope you feel the same?
And I am happy that you found someone important in your life, maomao seems like your type, time really let us all move on dont it?
Stay happy alright? But being here so far from home, if you ever needed someone, I am here =)
Very feel happy that we are still friends.
=D
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Hey! I have a good news. :) don't know if u would like to know about it or now.
I realised that my determination to move on have paid off. Finally.
It has been almost a week I think, I stopped feeling sad and disappointed or even anger when I thought about him. Well there were so many things that happened, made me realised that he is not someone that everyone thought he is. He fooled me. I felt betrayed both in the relationship and also as a friend. As his best friend I do feel betrayed. And seriously, even though there are so man jerks out there he is the worst I have ever known.
I tried to be nice and be a friend to him, a true friend, but I think it is now time for me to move on away from him as a whole.
No it does not mean I m ending the friendship, I just have decided to not give a damn if he just take me for granted.
Honestly, do I deserve all these crap from him? No I don't. Everyone could see how real I was towards him. But seriously, I never never have thought that he really sucked so much as a friend as well.
Ok enough bitching about him here. It s not my intention anyway. All I just want to say is that regardless he needs or not, I stopped caring already. He is just an acquaintance of mine. And now I really got over it, the hurt and all, i know I can face him confidently. Perhaps without the need for sarcasm. Well or perhaps maybe a little of it wont hurt haha.
I was surprised that you wished me luck on twitter. And despite the short conversation on twitter, I actually felt good about it. Appreciate the fact that we are still friends. Really. It's not easy. But thanks. :)
Now that I know I will be fine, I still hope that this place could still be my hiding place when I need it. I hope you don't mind. :)
I realised that my determination to move on have paid off. Finally.
It has been almost a week I think, I stopped feeling sad and disappointed or even anger when I thought about him. Well there were so many things that happened, made me realised that he is not someone that everyone thought he is. He fooled me. I felt betrayed both in the relationship and also as a friend. As his best friend I do feel betrayed. And seriously, even though there are so man jerks out there he is the worst I have ever known.
I tried to be nice and be a friend to him, a true friend, but I think it is now time for me to move on away from him as a whole.
No it does not mean I m ending the friendship, I just have decided to not give a damn if he just take me for granted.
Honestly, do I deserve all these crap from him? No I don't. Everyone could see how real I was towards him. But seriously, I never never have thought that he really sucked so much as a friend as well.
Ok enough bitching about him here. It s not my intention anyway. All I just want to say is that regardless he needs or not, I stopped caring already. He is just an acquaintance of mine. And now I really got over it, the hurt and all, i know I can face him confidently. Perhaps without the need for sarcasm. Well or perhaps maybe a little of it wont hurt haha.
I was surprised that you wished me luck on twitter. And despite the short conversation on twitter, I actually felt good about it. Appreciate the fact that we are still friends. Really. It's not easy. But thanks. :)
Now that I know I will be fine, I still hope that this place could still be my hiding place when I need it. I hope you don't mind. :)
Monday, May 16, 2011
How are you?
hello there again. Well I could still sign in, which means either you never sign in this acc anymore, or you are too busy for exams that you didnt check anymore, or you saw it and ignored.
But I appreciate that I could hide here once in awhile for now, even if eventually you would change the password of this acc. Or you may not.
Tonight is one of those random nights where I really need someone to talk to, yet I don't feel like explaining my feelings to people. I just need a friend, or at least I need to know that I still have true friends that care.
Sounds sad isnt it?
Have you ever felt betrayed before?
It sucked so badly that I want to die. I left Facebook because I can't face it myself, 'it' being you-know-what, and also because I can't be distracted for finals. I am afraid to drop by the studio. I know it will mess up my emotions that I tried so hard to contain. But I really miss everyone from TDC.
And because TDC is a family, I really hope that at least our relationship, you and me, as friends, could be mended. I know despite us talking again there is still some grudge inside the both of us, I sincerely hope to mend things. At least before we leave for UK you know.
and please don't get me wrong, its not because I broke up thats why I want to be your friend again. As I said before previously, I have been wanting to do this for a very long time already.
Actually thinking back, the only problem in our relationship was that you weren't ready for commitment and I wanted commitment. Its not like any of us lied or was unfaithful to each other that we need to hate each other. Well apart from being a bitch to each other after that, I don't see why the grudge should still exist.
Regardless of how retarded or childish our previous actions may seem, I think you are a nice guy because you never lied throughout the relationship. At least the relationship was honest.
You know how people say time will make us forget about things. For me I always choose to forget memories that were unhappy. And along the way, I tend to forget some of the good things too. Looking back at those pictures we used to have, I remembered that there were times where you were nice to me too, not everything was all bad. Like genting trip, latin classes.
Of course feelings for you in that sense were long gone already, but I do hope we can become true friends and not just acquaintances. And true friends don't judge, right?
i nearly forgot how was it like to talk to you, haha, but remembering it now, nonetheless it is quite a good memory that I would keep.
I was really upset just now probably due to the exam stress and all, and on top of that I feel lonely because I don't really open up to people. Its so hard staying strong on my own but sometimes I am afraid of facing my friends because I don't know whether to show my true self or just pretend everything is ok.
I wonder how you deal with it when you are upset? You don't really show this side of yourself to people, but isn't that tiring?
I really miss the old TDC a lot.
Being like this, honestly, is eating me up on the inside..
Its so depressing.
I got over him, but I felt so disappointed that he betrayed my friendship as well.
What should I do?
I cant wait to leave this place man.
Because I can't hate him and the only feeling I have when I see or think about him is disappointment.
I wish someone could help me.
All the best in exams and take care,
I hope you see this, but even if you don't, I still wish you all the best.
But I appreciate that I could hide here once in awhile for now, even if eventually you would change the password of this acc. Or you may not.
Tonight is one of those random nights where I really need someone to talk to, yet I don't feel like explaining my feelings to people. I just need a friend, or at least I need to know that I still have true friends that care.
Sounds sad isnt it?
Have you ever felt betrayed before?
It sucked so badly that I want to die. I left Facebook because I can't face it myself, 'it' being you-know-what, and also because I can't be distracted for finals. I am afraid to drop by the studio. I know it will mess up my emotions that I tried so hard to contain. But I really miss everyone from TDC.
And because TDC is a family, I really hope that at least our relationship, you and me, as friends, could be mended. I know despite us talking again there is still some grudge inside the both of us, I sincerely hope to mend things. At least before we leave for UK you know.
and please don't get me wrong, its not because I broke up thats why I want to be your friend again. As I said before previously, I have been wanting to do this for a very long time already.
Actually thinking back, the only problem in our relationship was that you weren't ready for commitment and I wanted commitment. Its not like any of us lied or was unfaithful to each other that we need to hate each other. Well apart from being a bitch to each other after that, I don't see why the grudge should still exist.
Regardless of how retarded or childish our previous actions may seem, I think you are a nice guy because you never lied throughout the relationship. At least the relationship was honest.
You know how people say time will make us forget about things. For me I always choose to forget memories that were unhappy. And along the way, I tend to forget some of the good things too. Looking back at those pictures we used to have, I remembered that there were times where you were nice to me too, not everything was all bad. Like genting trip, latin classes.
Of course feelings for you in that sense were long gone already, but I do hope we can become true friends and not just acquaintances. And true friends don't judge, right?
i nearly forgot how was it like to talk to you, haha, but remembering it now, nonetheless it is quite a good memory that I would keep.
I was really upset just now probably due to the exam stress and all, and on top of that I feel lonely because I don't really open up to people. Its so hard staying strong on my own but sometimes I am afraid of facing my friends because I don't know whether to show my true self or just pretend everything is ok.
I wonder how you deal with it when you are upset? You don't really show this side of yourself to people, but isn't that tiring?
I really miss the old TDC a lot.
Being like this, honestly, is eating me up on the inside..
Its so depressing.
I got over him, but I felt so disappointed that he betrayed my friendship as well.
What should I do?
I cant wait to leave this place man.
Because I can't hate him and the only feeling I have when I see or think about him is disappointment.
I wish someone could help me.
All the best in exams and take care,
I hope you see this, but even if you don't, I still wish you all the best.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Hello
hey. Sorry for being so abrupt and posting things here.
Perhaps you have forgotten that there was a time where you gave me the password to this blog?
Anyway, I am sorry for even signing in, but I hope that even if you see this you will not change the password to this blog.
I feel so lonely now and I have nowhere to go. I don't know who else I can find and talk to because nothing seems to be helping me overcoming this feeling.
I just need a place where I could let myself out, totally.
I am feeling so unhappy lately and its eating me up on the inside.
No one understands what happened.
I know you might not be keen on hearing from me right now, seeing that you have exams and stuffs, just ignore me over here.
Just need a secret hiding place for now. I don't have anyone I could rely on.
This time I am really hurt very deeply.
Feel like dying from time to time.
But don't worry, not doing anything stupid.
I don't expect you to be here for me, just as long as you don't shun me away from here.
I do need a person to talk to.
And when I saw your posts from the past, and those pictures, they indeed reminded me of the good old days.
And honestly, I kind of forgot why I hated you so much before this.
My current situation is much worse than last time.
I wish we could talk like how we used to. That would really be nice.
If you don't mind talking to me, well, you could reply by posting a new post,
but if you still don't feel like talking to me,
well, I really hope you don't change the password of this blog so that I could come here again when I needed some comfort.
I know I have been a bitch to you, I was only protecting myself because back then I really got very hurt as I expected more commitments from you.
But what is past has passed. I hope this time its a truce for real.
And if possible, could you please keep this as a secret?
I do hope we could really mend things before I leave for UK.
All the best in your exams, friend.
And before you misunderstand me, actually I have been wanting to resolve things with you for a very long time already, even before I got together with Alan, just that I didn't have the opportunity to do so. And when there was opportunity I was afraid, I was afraid that you won't be bothered.
Let me know what you think ok?
I am sorry for trespassing here, but I am grateful to have a place to hide for awhile.
Yours truly,
Irene
Perhaps you have forgotten that there was a time where you gave me the password to this blog?
Anyway, I am sorry for even signing in, but I hope that even if you see this you will not change the password to this blog.
I feel so lonely now and I have nowhere to go. I don't know who else I can find and talk to because nothing seems to be helping me overcoming this feeling.
I just need a place where I could let myself out, totally.
I am feeling so unhappy lately and its eating me up on the inside.
No one understands what happened.
I know you might not be keen on hearing from me right now, seeing that you have exams and stuffs, just ignore me over here.
Just need a secret hiding place for now. I don't have anyone I could rely on.
This time I am really hurt very deeply.
Feel like dying from time to time.
But don't worry, not doing anything stupid.
I don't expect you to be here for me, just as long as you don't shun me away from here.
I do need a person to talk to.
And when I saw your posts from the past, and those pictures, they indeed reminded me of the good old days.
And honestly, I kind of forgot why I hated you so much before this.
My current situation is much worse than last time.
I wish we could talk like how we used to. That would really be nice.
If you don't mind talking to me, well, you could reply by posting a new post,
but if you still don't feel like talking to me,
well, I really hope you don't change the password of this blog so that I could come here again when I needed some comfort.
I know I have been a bitch to you, I was only protecting myself because back then I really got very hurt as I expected more commitments from you.
But what is past has passed. I hope this time its a truce for real.
And if possible, could you please keep this as a secret?
I do hope we could really mend things before I leave for UK.
All the best in your exams, friend.
And before you misunderstand me, actually I have been wanting to resolve things with you for a very long time already, even before I got together with Alan, just that I didn't have the opportunity to do so. And when there was opportunity I was afraid, I was afraid that you won't be bothered.
Let me know what you think ok?
I am sorry for trespassing here, but I am grateful to have a place to hide for awhile.
Yours truly,
Irene
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